Friday, June 24, 2005

Alone In Love

Sorry if this is dull, but this is just a burning thought in my head, It doesn't make scense to me, Some know who i am talking about, I ...just have to let it out some how.

I walk down these boulevards, and these avenues, I can't help but wonder why. All these people walking, walking around me. They seem so happy, just so damn happy. Why could I not have that feeling in me. Is it because I walk alone.
Sorry if this is dull, but this is just a burning thought in my head, It doesn't make scense to me, Some know who i am talking about, I ...just have to let it out some how.

I walk down these boulevards, and these avenues, I can't help but wonder why. All these people walking, walking around me. They seem so happy, just so damn happy. Why could I not have that feeling in me. Is it because I walk alone. I share nothing with no one. I said nothing, with no one. no one at all. I feel no love in this world. I feel this worlds hatred for me, you just keep holding his hand, I will keep walking away. I will never look back, back at you, you are just a ghost to me. Only in my eyes. I cant help but picture you you and him, as I walk a way from this spot where my lips first met yours. I can t help but imagine what I had, What I wasn't willing to fight for. This one fight that would change my chemestry forever. I can't help but hate what I gave up. I can't help but hate myself, as I walk these boulevards, and these avenues. As I walk them alone, I can't help but notice that every one else has what I could of had. I can't help but miss you. I tell my self that I am better off without you. And deep down I know I am right. God wouldn't have let this happen if it wasn't better, I know that if I wold have taken that fight for you, I would have done, more than I was willing to do. I know my morals would have been tested, and my love for you would have been tested. But as this lone year comes to an end, I can still remember the first time our lips met, the first and last time. I can still remember the first lie you told me, and the last conversations we had. And the long months being a thousand miles apart. With no way of conversing. And I can still remember when it came down to me and you, taking that stand, and keeping you, or leaving you, I remember that choice so clearly, as I walk away, and see that ever lasting gleem in your eyes. The gleem of a million people on these street, still wishing I had that, but reallizing, you sometimes have to let go of the ones you love. I can't help but wonder why, all these people walking, walking around me. They seem so happy, just so damn happy. Why could I not have that feeling in me. Is it because I walk alone. I share nothing with no one. I said nothing, with no one. no one at all. I feel no love in this world. I feel this worlds hatred for me, you just keep holding his hand, I will keep walking away. I will never look back, back again... now that i realize love doesn't last because you had to fight for it, but because you didn't.

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